Wow! I don’t know how you all kept faith in me! LOL! The last posting was about my squirrel family that developed…and how I cannot seem to keep focused on keeping up with a blog. It’s true. And I am truly sorry.
But here it is again. Don’t hold me to it, but I’m going to try and try again to post regularly. Whether regular means daily, weekly, or monthly (…..yearly??? I hope not), I’m going to try and do it because there’s something to this writing down feelings thing.
These past few weeks have been a struggle for me. As most people feel the winter blues, I am feeling it too. I’m convinced Seasonal Affective Disorder has taken hold of my spirits. My mood has been less than positive and spritely. In fact I think I’m a down right mess! You’d never know it to witness it unless I truly trusted you with my deepest darkest emotions.
This past year I have strayed from my very being…my purpose, if you will. I have allowed much negativity from outside (work, groups, politics, etc) to seep into my core. I allowed it, and therefore I take full responsibility. But I think I’ve reached a point where I am done being this negative energy sponge.
Recently, I – very skittishly – went back to my role as a healer. I know what you’re thinking, “What on EARTH is she taking on the role of healer if she’s not even in the right frame of mind herself?”
Great question! I only stopped to ask myself that question just now. My quick response was, “Have you not already witnessed a change? Are your spirits not up from the challenge of rebuilding? You’re excited about the POTENTIAL!”
Isn’t that what life really is all about? Potential!
See, if we stick ourselves in the boring, monotony of repetition – standing on the conveyor belt that can be life – we lose our potential….or really, we lose SIGHT of our potential. The potential is always there. It just depends on how much energy you put into it.
Oh my, this is sounding like a physics lesson!
I suppose the potential equals the energy you put into something that charges you!
Okay, physics nerd chuckle. 😀
Anyway, I’m sure I’m not done here…but I’ve run out of thoughts for now. Keep posted as to how things are going. I’m super nervous about being back in the healing world, but it’s a good nervous….excited actually.
So how bout you? What could make your life a bit more charged? Is there something you’re holding back because you’re in your safe zone? I may have said it once before, but take that leap, because life happens in the gap!